This morning…and it is morning, barely (4:30 am)  I am awake, unable to rest my mind and soul.  How did sleeplessness get me cyber surfing?  Well, it started with a new friend I met online on one of my dairy goat groups.  She is fallen away from the Church and mistakenly believes that what she was “tortured” with in High School is what Jesus designed the Church to be :-(  I could not sleep with the need to write and tell her “The Catholic Church is sensual, romantic and beautiful” not yucky and burdensome.  But anyway that is what got me typing.  Of course once out of bed and typing all the harder to go back, so I decided to resave all my favorite sites.  (My hard drive died.  I was terrified all my pictures since October were lost however, an awesome guy from church not only fixed my computer to run like never before but he was also able to salvage all my pictures!!!  Thank you PC Techman, Angel Venega @ http://pctechmanservice.com/.)

OK, anyway, I went to catch up on my friends’ posts when my breath was taken from me.  http://www.sonlightgarden.com/my_weblog/miscarriage/index.html  Although I did know about the loss of her so new unborn children, I was not prepared for my response.  I am reposting it here because I know so many moms and dads have survived the loss of a child whether through miscarriage, still born or at some later yet too soon time.  So although this was originally written to my best and dearest friend, I offer it now to all my “friends” whether we have met yet or will meet before the Throne.

“My friend, how much I ache for you. The loneliness within one’s own body is a feeling I prayed you would never know. I am comforted with the knowledge that you are able to fill that emptiness with our Lord through the Eucharist. I know, that as we and our children here are the closest of friends, so too, our little ones are together praying for us and their siblings as they praise God face to face, as we long to do. I know that although our motherly arms ache to hold the little ones we so desperately love, Our Blessed Mother has enveloped them into her arms as she presented them to her Son. I am awed meditating on the infiniteness of God. His love for us is so profound that He gave to us the gift of creating, not just the fleeting things of the world, but the eternal, a new person, a soul that will live on beyond our imagination. Whether we have them for a week, 9 months, 20 years, or all our natural lives they are for God. They will live, because of Him, forever. At the moment the Lord blessed us with new life they were made in His Image and Likeness to live with Him forever in Peace and Happiness. At the moment of their creation their eternity began. It is awesome to remember we will have eternity to spend together, sharing the Lambs Supper as God has prepared for those who love Him. I find comfort that the Lord provides, even now, that at the moment of Consecration, Heaven and Earth collide and we are together, one Body, One people, One Communion of saints, Worshipping Him as He has designed. I look forward to the day when we will sit at the Wedding feast and the veil is lifted from our eyes and together we worship Him, our Bridegroom, our Savior, our Lord. I love you and as always I lift you up to our Lord in prayer. May He continue to give you strength and the Peace only He can give.”